I woke up this morning, a mess and barely clothed My hair was still long and knotted. I had no will to move, just stayed there sinking into the bed. I felt you next to me. I just wanted to roll over and be close to you. But I was. But I let those 4 inches between us feel like 4 thousands mile of distance. I know I wasn't sober even though I shouldve of been. The cat linger over us. I felt his paws push against my leg. Was he trying to get me to move? His eyes glared at me and all I could do is whisper 'sorry' and push him aside. Is it obvious? Obvious that I'm in pain. I think so. But then again, only I can get the clear view of who I really am. The mirror doesn't help but I can't avoid it forever. I stared at the blank screen, waiting for my brain to create a sentence. All I could do is start it out with 'dear insignificant'. Barely remember how I got from point a, the bed to point b, my computer chair. Who are you again? The better question is why I laid motionless 4 inches away from you. The course of the day didn't phase me until I had to gather myself to reach for my wallet. That little plastic wrapping around my numbing escape gave me what I needed to unravel the will to survive. So what if I had to tightly roll up a dollar bill and inhale my perception of reality? I've done with you before, what made it different this time that you weren't around? i woke up this night. Hours have passed High and fully clothed With barely any hair and knottedfree You miles away and waiting for the next time I'm 4 inches away and still feeling that vast distance. Still a fucking mess but more stable at heart. |
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i wrote this last night.
not in a sober state of mind. |
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